Today is day 1 of my final 2 days at Movies and More, the hell hole I call work. Harsh words for a company that seems to have given me such great times and writing ideas, but when you’re there and your brain becomes a nice bowl of oatmeal after 50 hour work weeks, you understand that there’s nothing fun about being a clerk.
I’m having a hard time right now. If anyone reads this let me know what you think.
I’m finished with school. I don’t know if I want to pursue a high paying career in the tooth and nail world of web design & development like Dilbert or just settle for working at Barnes & Noble or Starbucks?
I have a Bachelor’s degree, but the job market is saturated with designers, and I’m not that good. To prove it, you can see my online portfolio Here. It’s not that good in comparison to what’s out there right now, and the school has really done a great job of sucking out my desire to work in that field.
What next though?
I’m married, so I should just be a man and suck it up right? Just go forward into dreading my work day but getting a paycheck that helps feed the family? Is there honor in that? Is it worth it?
I read about these “american” dad’s and they do the daily grind and come home to a baseball game and then go to sleep because they have to do it again tomorrow, is that life I am meant for?
I would ask more of my friends, but none of them have graduated college, and well I’m bad at keeping in touch on phones. It appears that no one can send an email, including myself. I’m bad.
I want solace, and I want a clear answer but it seems that every morning I change my mind. Yesterday I wanted to be a web designer for sure, and today I want to get another job as a clerk.
My parents don’t help. I don’t know what to do.
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All I can tell you is how I would feel in your situation, so…While it usually seems easy to stay in the lower level job area like retail and such, that’s just because it’s comfortable and you can’t just settle for what’s comfortable. I would know that I wasn’t trying my best or living up to my expectations. I find myself doing this sometimes, but I know I shouldn’t. It’s easy to hold yourself back because then you don’t have to worry about failing or not being able to do it. But think of the satisfaction and how good you’ll feel about yourself when you see that you can do it and it for any reason it doesn’t work out, at least you can say you tried and have experience. May sound kinda cheesy but that’s what I would want someone to tell me.
Ay jorge
Well first of all you have nobody to please but yourself. What do you mean you don’t know what to do. You have a degree now! Dude com on you just have to look! Your closing doors yourself nobody is putting so much negative shit but you. Oh what if this what if that oh I’m not good enough. You went to school for that and now your done. Competition is always goin to be there so don’t let that be an excuse. Your usually the one who knows and goes to get what he wants. Jeannete will be there to support you all the way I know. If you really want to work now as a clerk or watever you could have quit school and gotten a 4th job since you have 3…l.o.l
Like I said you only have to please yourself and only you should feel acomplished! Its your LIFE! So do what you need to do. K I know you might read this and be like eh I knew this so what but take it as a reminder cause sometimes we forget.