I was in Idaho all weekend, and while it’s always nice to spend time with family, it’s also hard on me personally in little ways. I am not introverted, or too quiet, because if I have to, I can turn on the magic and be as gregarious as anyone else. However, I need a lead in, otherwise I am stuck listening to the cultural themes that seem to plague our society today. Only people don’t realize that they are talking about popular culture in the midst of their own words. It seems that we are all trying to get away from a “Walmart” mentality, but you can not stop the juggernaut. It’s too large for anyone person to avoid, and while there were times where I was wondering why I was sitting in silence, there were also times that I delighted in the fact that I am that silent one in the face of the people that want to talk a lot.

Two things came to mind while I was inside my boredom’s cage. These things being of a religious nature, and not a secular doldrum, they aren’t of the norm. I thought about Job. Job lost everything, and I do mean everything, so eventually he was lying down in a heap of ashes, with the depression that is a remnant of some of my own words sometimes. While he was there, his friends at by him and spent days on end not saying one solitary thing. The bible records this, and his friends just stayed quiet…

I know that I am not an outstanding example at times, but I figured that if those guys could sit there and shut up, that I could too.

My next thought process was in regards to Proverbs. It states that even a fool seems wise if they shut their mouth.

So I sat there with my head battling its own demise, and the selfishness of my own unfamiliar inklings rising up in my heart, and I let it go. I simply let go. On one occasion it got to be too much, and I walked to my in-laws house. Otherwise I was sitting in the midst of what seemed to be uninterested parties. I guess that’s another reason to blog. So at least my thoughts are poured out into this canvas of ours and left for the world to see…read…digest…if they so desire.

I received a healthy dose of religion over the weekend. Sitting through church services, a trip to a catholic bookstore, and a baptism. I say religion because the movements and rhetoric to me felt that way. My parents did not raise me catholic, but I have seen and been through many church services, and I can’t really buy into a ritualistic ideal. So sitting through the old time rituals and trying to fit the hymns into a modern brain, was more than I could handle. Not only that, when theologies clash, things go awry. If I were a non-christian, than the things that I had witnessed would undoubtedly forced me to stay in my ignorance of religious themes. But since I’m fascinated by culture, I sat and I studied the similarities of the community that I was in. Diversity was no where to be seen. I was a black t-shirt, and brown skin in the midst of beige and white tones and noses held high, without a hello or kind word to satiate my ego’s rage. If this is what it means to be intelligent, I want nothing to do with it…my minds eye crushed by the lack of sincerity in many ways.

I had the best Mexican Food that I’ve had since moving away from Los Angeles. I had Chile Verde, a hard test for any Mexican restaurant. It’s a pork based dish with a green Chile sauce that is not hot at all, but is great coupled with corn tortillas. These guys did it right. Not too thick, not too thin, not hot, just right. Who would of thought that 500 miles away from my home, there would be great Mexican food!

The Mariners beat Kansas City thrice! They also won last night in my old home town.

I’m sorry for all those who have read and commented on this website. I’ve unfortunately did not go online very much during the weekend. By the time I got home last night, I had to sift through over 600+ posts from rss feeds around the world, and well, while I managed to finish all of them off, I didn’t really comment on a lot. I apologize. I’m reading though. I’ll be online more today and the rest of the weeks coming by, since I don’t have a lot on my plate outside of the online world.

This post is a little dry, and I apologize, it’s just that I’ve had a lot of time to think, and not enough time to clarify my thoughts in many ways. Do not fret, I’ll return with more stuff tomorrow…

Oh and on a sidenote: Everything in red on this page and in my entries is clickable. So if you see something that is in red, you will be sent to another page or reference that I’m talking about. Like that quote below, if you click the name, you will be taken to the full article…etc…etc…