Last night after work I had a marvelous plan of writing, and reading. I had this idea that I would work for a few hours, then watch WWE at 9 pm (pst), but all these things were foiled.

What happened?

Well….

I was on the floor face down, assuming a little rest would do me good, and that’s all. I stayed on the floor through the night, and woke up in a puddle of my own drool. It was cold, it was disgusting, it totally blew my computer time to hell. What happened to me?

I rose up out of my stupor, and got the car keys, it was time to drive my wife to work. This is 4 am mind you, a time set aside for the world to sleep, not to drive, but I was awake and ready to be the driver.

I used to play a game called “Driver” it was fun, driving at 4 am is not fun. Although there is no traffic, and there is nothing to hold me back.

I wonder what life was like a few years ago. Back when I had no writing to do.

I’ll tell you what it was like…..Boring.

I was the good student, always done the right thing, never missed a day of school….well public school. While in private school I missed a lot of days, and was a horrible student. It’s hard to learn when your teachers don’t really want to help you. I had one good teacher, and I remember her to this day. She actually inspired me to read and write, and even had my work published for me once, it was stellar. After being thrown out of private school, I went to Santa Monica High School. That was great for me. The real world tasted a lot better than the four corners of the church school, and while I appreciate the intentions of the school, I like the real world a little better. I don’t believe that Jesus wanted his followers inside a little bubble of religious intent, but rather to live life as is stated…with love, hope, peace, kindness, goodness…etc….etc….all other things fall into place.

Now that I’ve lost half my audience for being of the faith….I’ll continue my relapse…

I spent a lot of time online at school. I had a lot of computer related classes, and began my discoveries of internet user technologies and figured that if I’m going to make a career out of computers, I should learn the code that makes the internet display better.

The boredom movement that was my life really didn’t start moving until I got my second job ever. The Casket Store…oh man that was bad news. Casket retailers are not fast moving companies. They are slow moving and there are great deals of time when there is nothing to do all day. There is absolutely nothing. Most days I dusted the caskets and vacuumed, but after that was over I sat there at a desk doing nothing.

People don’t realize how these boredom structures create lucidity sometimes, and I recommend the mundane for many people. It is there that I found out a lot about my thoughts and ideas. It was there that I first realized that I did not like corporate structures at all and loved the D.I.Y mentality that propels my writing, selling, and other aspects of my world outside of my job.

Though I love helping people, I hate the idea of being a sheep. Yes…I know that contradicts my faith to most, but I don’t see my faith as being a sheep, because I don’t just blindly follow Christianity and ignorantly follow the life. I know the book (the bible) and I know the structures and beliefs of all other religions, as well as the atheists and many other people’s belief systems. I even took a class in college called “Belief Systems”, and a class on UFO’s and other “Fringe” beliefs. So it’s not like your old pal sir jorge is an idiot or ignorant. But that’s a tangent….

The point of this whole post was the fact that I’ve grown old. I’m an old man..a tired old man that falls asleep on the floor during Matlock.