I’m tired. My day in the sun will come, the one chosen, but as for today and tomorrow I have to continue to work. Seriously, I have had better days, and today I tried something different. I wore two sets of socks, trying to keep my feet warmer, it didn’t work, and it made me feel like crap. The cold weather and me don’t mix very well. I sat there on my hands, wishing for peace, contentment in the midst of humility, and that’s harder than ever. I can’t really say how hard it is for me to be both in the same sentence, but I am striving for contentment further than any other time in my life. It’s not easy at all, it hurts me to think that I can’t have both standards at the moments that I have a hard time. I give up…but I don’t give in.

I’m going to get back to watching the Basketball Diaries.