The first time I heard this song by Seether I was watching a special on Eddie Guerrero. In context, I realized that the song wasn’t just a one hit wonder, but moreover something that I’ve been stating since I was a young boy and these artists put it to music.

I’ve been battling for understanding since I was a young boy. Raised by a single mom and listening to the church tell me all sorts of things. I have felt the broken times more than I would have liked to. With my dad eventually never speaking to me again, and a high school romance that was heavily one sided, I was definitely not feeling good through my teenage years.

Then when I became an adult I was sitting in a cubicle at 9 pm and wishing for something more to life than to be a nameless entity of a corporation, but I wasn’t and my schooling has not given me much better.

To some this song is just another goth/rock infused play on the loneliness of being a millionaire recording artist, but to me it’s an anthem of how bad I feel sometimes, and especially now when I miss my sister and mom so much and Seattle provides me with little to no friends that like to do what I do, and yes, I am sure I can garner a lot of responses, but it’s not that, there’s more to it then simply a music video, and some careless words…I have so much more, but no time to write the novel.

So the video will be good enough for now. I’m so tired sometimes…I don’t know if anyone truly understands what I mean by that.